Monday, February 12, 2007

Do yourself a favor, don't read this...

Before I get started I need to apologize to the CR board members that are interested in my proposed study group. In a moment you will see the major reason why I have not been on the board or had time to orgainze the group as promised.

I must preface what I am about to post by explaining something about my personality: I am neurotic and obsessive compulsive. When I am runnining really well I put a lot of my extra time into poker. I have trouble walking away from the opportunity to make money. On the flip side, when I run poor....I put every ounce of my time, energy, and mental power into the game I am growing to fucking hate. I have played more in the last 7 days than in the 15 before. In those 7 days I have posted winners in only 1 (for $82, yippie skippy). On Sunday I had a point where I lost on 10 of 13 tables I had played. IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE? Over that span my session winning % was UNDER 40. UNDER 40 FREAKING %.

I know, I know, we have all had this happen many times over......but this time it is killing me mentally. I am litteraly running myself into the ground. I took Saturday off and slept 14 hours and even that did not help.

The last straw was tonight. I ran well late Sunday and got about $200 back from the $400 I was down. I logged off early and went to bed on a good note. I played a 30 person MTT this afternoon and took 2nd. I started out great tonight and was up about $150 in 30 minutes when it started AGAIN. Here are the only 4 pots I lost over $30 tonight:

Hand 1:
http://www.pokerhand.org/?818457

Hand2:
http://www.pokerhand.org/?818472

Hand 3:
http://www.pokerhand.org/?818476

Hand 4:
http://www.pokerhand.org/?818479

Am I doing something wrong? Should I have I pitched the kings? Was I wrong to check the QQ on the turn (I thought he had an over pair after the flat call of my three bet and of the $25 I bet on the flop). Did I mention that the hand after the QQ vs AK hand I had 88 and flopped a set vs AA? Too bad I only had $35 cause I did not get a chance to rebuy? God I hate poker...

And now, for my pleasure, and your pain, I will post about 425 coolers that nobody will read. Why? Because it is better than punching shit...

Hand 5:
Can I possibly muck this???
http://www.pokerhand.org/?818485

Hand 6:
Nothing I could do here...
http://www.pokerhand.org/?818487

Hand 7:
This makes me want to puke.
http://www.pokerhand.org/?818491

Hand 8:
This I maybe shoulda pitched? God, I don't know...
http://www.pokerhand.org/?818492

Hand 9:
Once again, what can I do different here?
http://www.pokerhand.org/?818495

Hand 10:
Villain is 78/16 and will shove with ANY pair EVERY time.
http://www.pokerhand.org/?818499

Hand 11:
Against the same player as hand 10.
http://www.pokerhand.org/?818501

Hand 12:
tbittles strikes again...
http://www.pokerhand.org/?818503

Hand 13:
This one really hurt. I was up for the night and had logged off all my other tables. I meant to log off this one as well but forgot to unclick autopost. Then I get this hand....what a way to finish.
http://www.pokerhand.org/?818508

Over this span I am running 16/13 (unulually tight for me) for two reasons:
1. I am not seeing shit for cards.
2. I am doing EVERYTHING in my power to play only the best hands in position in order to avoid the raping that I am taking.

Now you wanna hear the sick part? I am up $140 over the last 7 days while playing at home (which is where I got all these hands from) . Over that same time frame my roll is down $600...600+140=740 (for all you math majors out there). I am down $740 while at work! I will post 10 or 15 more hands from there tomorrow. Why? No idea...

I know this will turn around. The only question is will I figure out a way to chill the fuck out before it does? I have only really tilted three times through this:
1. I was at work and simply logged off.
2. After I lost hand 5 I threw a table across my basement (really) then logged off.
3. After hand 2 tonight, I logged off and tried my best not to break shit.

At this point I am not sure where to turn. I cannot bring myself to take time off. When I am not playing I am obsessing about playing which is evern worse. God, I need help...

*****UPDATE*****

So after I posted this and let my dogs out I was calmed down and decided to fire up two tables for 45 minutes before bed. I was up about $100 in 30 minutes....and ended up down $40. WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE????????????????????????????????????????????

By the way, I need a new calculator, I dropped mine and it broke...

1 comment:

Fruitypro said...

Hey dude,

Time to take a break I think. 2-3 days off will definitely help.

Hand 1: Fairly standard call given good pot odds but I don't like the situation too much!

Hand 2: Bet flop, don't slow play! I think I check/call river, the only way you will win a showdown is this line IMO.

Hand 3: Pretty standard on draw heavy board.

Hand 4: 3-bet pre is maybe a bit too big - I think $12 is fine here. I figure you were going for a turn c/r which is fine, river bet is bad because Ax is a big part of his range.

Hand 5: Standard cooler but you should not be minraising as a 3-bet, make it $65 to go.

Hand 6: Ouch. I prefer leading flop to check/raising, but whatever.

Hand 7: You played it fine, unlucky.

Hand 8: I call this unless he is a nit. You'll see a flush draw here more often than not.

Hand 9: Played fine, sick beat.

Hand 10: I'd probably pitch this preflop. That was probably your mistake, calling a raise with an easily dominated hand.

Hand 11: Played ok, unlucky. I bet turn a lot too :-)

Hand 12: Bet turn, take him to valuetown.

Hand 13: I cant remember the last time I folded AA in a reraised pot, unlucky.